Satisfied???

Well, today was one of those days, when I got real bored.. I mean REAL real bored. Literally, I didn't want to do anything. But, there was always something in my mind saying that, I am not accomplishing anything today, my life is waste etc. etc. ...

So, I thought I should play piano, or do painting, but frankly, didn't want to get up. I was being less satisfied by idea of not achieving anything, but at the same time, I didn't want to do anything.

So, it hit me. Even though I want to accomplish something to get satisfaction, why am I not doing it? Well, there is some negative value for work to be done.

Now, only question needed to be answered was, how long I have to do more work? So, I got up, and since I had nothing to do, I drew these specs.. Have a look..

Here, K is something that you do, when you don't feel good or bad, and you don't achieve anything that you feel satisfied about... You don't like it, and you don't dislike it.. etc. etc. A neutral work... like, breathing, sleeping etc.

"l" is amount you are doing less work than K. and all of a sudden, you decide to do "m" more work than K.

Work(t) : W(t)

Accomplish(t) : A(t) = Integral(W(t) - K)

Satisfaction : S(t) = A(t) - K'*(W(t)) + K''.

K' represents how much you hate to do work.

K'' represents how much satisfied you are in general. So, lets forget K'' here.

Now, T is the time for which you need to more "m" more at least so that at the end, you'll feel more satisfied about your decision to jump the Work curve.

By calculations, you get : T = K'*(l+m)/m = K'*(l/m +1)

To, more you jump, lesser it'll take. Or, lesser you hate your job, your good to go...

But, there is another time T'. If you jump for even less than this, you'll feel.. "Ohh, my life is becoming more and more bad..." since your curve now, is below the curve, even without a jump.)

By calculation : T' = K'*(l+m)/(l+m) = K'...

So, more you hate your job, you need to try it a little more....

Well, moral of story,.. I feel quite satisfied, that I actually did something for some time today.. YEEEEEESSSS..

अवशेष

नवीन सरकार आपल्या जुन्या प्राचीन सौंसकृती विषयी विशेष अभिमानी होते. जे आपले पूर्वज करून गेले, जो वारसा त्यांनी आपल्याला दिलाय, तोच आपण जतन ठेवला पाहिजे. आजकालच्या या औद्योगिक युगात आपली प्राचीन, देव देवतांनी बांधलेली समृद्धी यांचा विसर आपल्ल्याला पडला आहे याची खंत त्यांना होती. आणि बहुतांश इतिहासकार आणि सर्व धार्मिक लोक याशी सहमत होते. अचानक एक शोध लागला कि एका शहराच्या खाली देव देवतांनी बांधलेली, प्राचीन युगीन भव्य रचना आहे. पण सध्या त्यावर दोन तीन कापड गिरण्या उभ्या आहेत. पण शेवटी धार्मिक लोकांच्या प्रचंड आग्राहस्तव, आणि मोठ्या लोकांच्या आशिर्वादाने, त्या गिरण्या पाडण्यात आल्या. सगळा ढीगरा बाजूला सरल्यात आला आणि उत्खनन सुरू झले. वर्षभर खोदून, त्यांना हजारो वर्षांपूर्वीच्या वस्तू दिसल्या. बरेच सौशोधन करून कळले की हे त्या काळातील एक प्रगत शहर होते. आणि माधवर्ती भागात एक मोठी पुरतं काळातील कपडे निर्मिती करणारी यांत्री होती ते शहर हजारो लोकांचे राहणीमान होत, आणि देशाच्या व्यापाराच एक मूलभूत अंग होत.

हे पुरतं अवशेष पाहून लोकांना धन्य वाटले. आपल्याला लाभलेल्या या वरश्याबाबत लोक खूप अभिमान बाळगू लागले. देश-विदेशातून लोक हा वारसा बघायला यायला लागले, त्याच कौतुक करायला लागले, त्यापासून शिकायला हवे असा म्हणायला लागले. हे अवशेष जगास खूप काही देऊन जातील, असे जनमत बनले.

बाजूला एका झोपडीत आपला काम काढून घेतला कामगार आपला बायका पोरांना घेऊन आपल्या कापड गिरणीच अवशेष पाहत होता.

जर मी दारू प्यायलो तर...

जर मी दारू प्यायलो तर, काय करेन ठाऊक नाही.

उभा राहायचे भान तरी असेल काय, माहित नाही.

लहानपणीच कळले मला, दारू वाईट पेय असते.

तब्येत खराब, घर खराब, जवळच्यांना दूर नेते.

व्यसनापाई पैसा जातो, व्यसनापाई शुद्धी जाते

निष्काम राहून, भांडण होऊन, घरच सारे गहाण पडते.

कॉलेज मध्ये शिकतांना पण, दारूचा जरा आग्रह झाला.

पण मी राहिलो स्थिर, म्हणालो "नाही त्याचा छंद कशाला?"

treat वर कधी गेलो असता, टुन्न होणे झाले नाही.

जर मी दारू प्यायलो तर, काय करेन ठाऊक नाही.

दारू पिऊन, टुन्न होऊन, लोकच कसे बदलून जातात.

कधी गातात, कधी रडतात, आणि कधी हरवून जातात.

काही जरा पचवलेले, तसेच ताजेपण भासवतात.

"मैने तो पिया हि नही", म्हणून प्रचंड भपकारा सोडतात.

आजवर काहींना रस्त्यावरती, उपडा झोपलेलं पाहिलंय.

आणि काहींना खरोखर "गटारात" निद्रादेवी आलीये.

एकास शिक्षा होऊनसुद्धा, दारू सोडणे जमलेच नाही.

जर मी दारू प्यायलो तर, काय करेन ठाऊक नाही.

कॉलेज च्या अखेरी मित्र, दारू पिउन बसले होते

आठवणी उजळत बसले होते, बोलून मोकळे होत होते

कोणी रडत बसले होते, आक्रोश कोणी करीत होते.

कोणी फाजिल बोलत होते, पण मन मोकळे करीत होते.

"जाऊदे, तो पिउन बसलाय", म्हणून लोकही "लाइट" घेत होते.

पण त्या निमित्ताने का होईना, पण मन त्यांचे मांडत होते.

पण अशी मित्रांची गम्मत पाहून, मला मात्र प्रश्न पडला

मनात साचला गाळ कधी, काय मी लोकांसमोर मांडला?

आज असा विचार करतो कि, कधी मनातले बोललोच नाही.

तोंडाला सारखा "फिल्टर" लावून, अर्धे मन कोंडून ठेवी.

भीती वाटते आजही मला, कि लोक काय समजतील.

मनातील सारे बोलून कधी, मलाही काय "लाईट" घेतील?

आजही शपथ आहे माझी, कि दारूला कधी शिवणार नाही.

जमल्यास मरेपर्यंतसुद्धा, पण शपथ माझी अटळ राहील.

पण आज वाटते, जर मी प्यालो, "फिल्टर" काय मी मोडला असता?

माझ्या इच्छा, माझे दुःख, बांध काय मी तोडला असता?

घातला असता कुठे मी राडा, कोणाला शिव्या दिल्या असत्या?

कोणाला बोलून, मोकळे होऊन, प्रश्न कधी सोडवला असता?

पण "जर तर" च सोडून देतो, काय आहे खात्री त्याची...

सध्या इथेच थांबतो...

म्हणतात ना, "झाकली मूठ सव्वा लाखाची"

:)

- अमेय

Charity

Once, I was chatting with my friend. We were chatting for long on the road. Just then, one beggar came along. Said, she was really hungry, and really poor and all. I told her this one thing, "Sorry, I don't do charity". She tried begging once more, but then she understood, that I was not going give any money. So, she left. For once, I felt that I might have had a really bad impression on my friend. "I don't do charity", that's pretty strong statement. For a bachelor like me, earning well enough to buy a gadget per month, it was not economical issue for me, specially when I didn't have any dependents. Even, I thought a bit odd about it.

There was another case. I was going home from Secunderabad station to Aurangabad for Diwali. As was just entering the station when 2 couples came along, each having a kid with them. They looked really scared in a way. They were asking, if anyone knew Hindi, as in Hyderabad, it was quite hard to find. I said, how can I help them. They said they came from Maharashtra, and lost all their stuff while visiting Tirupati. I sensed begging over their, and was ready to turn them down. Still, even I don't like to give money to strangers, I always like to help them. So, I asked them, that would they like to know any address, or how to reach any place etc. But they said, that they are going to return in some train to go back home as soon as possible and their only worry was their kids (both looked like 4-5 years old), who didn't have any food for a day or so. So, they asked me if I could lend them some money. I again tried to back out from that saying same phrase. But here, they were actually asking me for food, not money. As there were lot of fruit stalls and small shops around, I decided to give them some money for biscuits or something. And so I gave them money and left to catch my train.

While in train, I started to think, what was the difference between the 2 situations. Trust me when I say this, I do like to help anyone whenever possible. But somehow, giving money to anyone just makes me anxious and I just have a bad feeling about it. Somehow, I just feel that giving money makes things out of control. I heard and even seen many situations where beggars are millionaires (in Rs.). Also, I thing if anyone is begging for food, or any help, which will directly help him, I should give it to him/her. But when I give money, I dunno what that person is going to do with it. For all I know, from money given for food, he can go and get some alcohol, which will further ruin his life already in poverty. So, I decided this. I'll help anyone by buying things that he needs, or doing some help for him, like showing road, carrying stuff, giving drop at some place etc. Even I am ready to buy a hungry man some food. (In fact, I recently donated blood also :) ) I am not sure whether this approach is right or wrong, but I just feel nice if result of my money which also represents my efforts, should be in my control. Because, such a liquid thing like money, can result in any outcome, which I'll hate to do something which I don't want it to do.

Do pass your comments/ suggestions for this, since this questions keeps bothering me.

Never ending

It was year 2000. Inside a dark lane, a man appeared from nowhere. His name was "mr. Ganesh". After appearing, he had no identity proof with him. But being a born genius, he figured ways to get his identity back. Got a job in a reputed research lab. Meanwhile, he fell in love with this amazing woman called "Riddhi". Somehow she just reminded him of his mother, who died when he was just 8 years old. They fell in love. Got married in year 2005 in court with witness of many friends. A year after, they were blessed with a child. Very sweet and healthy child he was. Being a huge Lord Ganesh's devotee, Riddhi named him "Lambodar". (also the name signified his fatness) This kid turned out to be a genius. Sadly in year 2014, Riddhi and Ganesh died in a car accident. Lambodar was quite interested in physics. He went to research lab at the age of 20 only. He didn't like his name actually, now that he was all slim and all. He changed his name to "Ganesh". at the age of 25, he invented something improbable. "A time machine". After a year, he perfected his design. And set his course for year 2000...

Not so simple problem

There are 2 men.
There is one object that both crave.
It can be taken by only one of them.
They can get the object if and only if they work together.

Question : Will they work for getting this object?

(On a quick note, assume that there is no past affecting this decision. And there is nothing else there that they want or they can get.)

Have fun!!!

Friend or Foe

Imagine this:
You are put up on a very long plane white surface by someone.. say God. You say, "Hello, anyone there?" No one is there to respond. All you see is a place surface with nothing else in it. Even you can't dig into the surface. You are in terrible condition, living in nothingness.
'Twice a day, someone will ask "Are you hungry or are you bored?"
If all in there say hungry, they'll send 1 apple down.
If anyone say bored, they'll say one more human down.'
Now, once you say that you are bored, he'll send some other human there. For now, assume that is of your own sex and you are straight, so no other proposition is solved except someone to talk with.

The question is, will that human be your friend or foe? Remember, whoever comes on this land has the same rights as you have, and will be listened with equal importance. You'll first definitely talk with him like a friend. You are social animal and you need to socialize. So, it is fine to expect that he'll be your friend for a while. Now, again someone asks, "Are you bored or are you hungry?" You both say, "Hungry", since your boredom is gone while chatting. God sends you "a apple" You both are confused. There are 2 of you, but 1 apple. And trust this, you are hungry enough to eat at least one apple.

But rules are the rules. Twice a day, they'll ask "Are you hungry or are you bored?"
If all say hungry, they'll send 1 apple down.
If anyone say bored, they'll say one more human down.

Now, tell me. Will the other human is your friend or foe?

Applying this a little more generically, just makes me wonder, if the war along with humanity is also part of our nature? If it is so, is there a REAL concept called "world peace"?
If these generalization are not that acceptable.. forget about them, just answer the "friend or foe" question.

Have Fun!!!