The title seems a bit weird... looks similar to "pursuit of happiness", but a bit weird. However, I was talking with my wife, and this thing came up, that I am getting irritated by many things, and how I live my life with it. With that in mind, I thought this is probably best title for my Autobiography, if I plan to write one. I would want to add some things in this section, and hopefully, it would be a good read, and I'll continue writing more.
A bit about me first. I am a software engineer, working in Microsoft. Had some experience in Google and Facebook before, and studied in IITB, which is one of the best colleges in the country. I married my wife 4 years back. Ours was an mixed arranged / self arranged marriage. She is working as engineer as well in Qualcomm. My parents are from Aurangabad, and they are visiting me right now in Hyderabad. I make good money, have car, house, cool gadgets (like my Roomba). Things seems like they're going well for me. Recently I am buying a house, getting settled in India from US. It's a new thing in my life. Lots of new things to take in. New people, new culture, new issues.
But, with all of this, I am always irritated. I have felt like suicidal before, I've felt given up on everything. I burst out of people occasionally. But, with all that, I try to keep myself calm. My wife seems to like many things. She enjoys art, cooking, meeting people. I don't. There are rarely any things that I enjoy. On the outer shell, I look like very approachable. That means, people are happy for me to be with them. On the bad side, I've to hear all their problems. Even though, I have no solution / suggestion to most of them. I hate being a good boy, that I've acted like for so many years. But, I haven't had any bad intentions in my life either. I feel just bored so many times, and even though I feel tired from exhaustion, that's the only things that feels comfortable to me.
Lots of things irritate me, frustrate me, pain me. Maybe it's people annoying me, maybe it's they expecting things from me, maybe it's people asking me to do things I've no interest in. I like to live in a world, where I've choice to do things I want. I frankly don't expect to get many fruits from the world actually. If "Karmanyevadhikaraste, mam faleshu kadachan" to be believed, "I have right to work, and not fruits of it". So, that should have been simple. But, it's not. And that's what irritates me. With that in mind, I'm going to add some stuff here that I find irritating on regular basis,
A bit about me first. I am a software engineer, working in Microsoft. Had some experience in Google and Facebook before, and studied in IITB, which is one of the best colleges in the country. I married my wife 4 years back. Ours was an mixed arranged / self arranged marriage. She is working as engineer as well in Qualcomm. My parents are from Aurangabad, and they are visiting me right now in Hyderabad. I make good money, have car, house, cool gadgets (like my Roomba). Things seems like they're going well for me. Recently I am buying a house, getting settled in India from US. It's a new thing in my life. Lots of new things to take in. New people, new culture, new issues.
But, with all of this, I am always irritated. I have felt like suicidal before, I've felt given up on everything. I burst out of people occasionally. But, with all that, I try to keep myself calm. My wife seems to like many things. She enjoys art, cooking, meeting people. I don't. There are rarely any things that I enjoy. On the outer shell, I look like very approachable. That means, people are happy for me to be with them. On the bad side, I've to hear all their problems. Even though, I have no solution / suggestion to most of them. I hate being a good boy, that I've acted like for so many years. But, I haven't had any bad intentions in my life either. I feel just bored so many times, and even though I feel tired from exhaustion, that's the only things that feels comfortable to me.
Lots of things irritate me, frustrate me, pain me. Maybe it's people annoying me, maybe it's they expecting things from me, maybe it's people asking me to do things I've no interest in. I like to live in a world, where I've choice to do things I want. I frankly don't expect to get many fruits from the world actually. If "Karmanyevadhikaraste, mam faleshu kadachan" to be believed, "I have right to work, and not fruits of it". So, that should have been simple. But, it's not. And that's what irritates me. With that in mind, I'm going to add some stuff here that I find irritating on regular basis,
